I have the week off of
school, so I thought I'd come up with another reason to avoid the laundry and
resurrect my blog with a little journal entry/life update. First things first,
Jake and I celebrated 8 years of marriage this week! We went out for a kid-free
steak dinner and a movie, which felt like a Caribbean cruise. Once upon a
time we went out to dinner and a movie twice a week and had a coffee table with
glass votives on top. Now we wake up like popcorn throughout the night and have
a personal landfill of diapers, which is the perfect segue into our most
important/amazing life change within the past year: baby Mae!
We both stood in shock
staring at a positive pregnancy test on June 14, 2018 and welcomed the most
perfect baby girl February 13, 2019. Let me tell you, having two colicky babies
at once as your baptism by fire into parenthood makes for a smooth transition
into number 3. Don't get me wrong, we had some very very rough and tumble
moments as the twins tried to adjust to sharing me with someone they weren't
used to sharing with. Overall though, it has been an amazing experience and Mae
has added measurable peace and happiness to our home. Sunny and Guy still talk
about meeting her at the hospital, but I'm not sure they even remember life
without her anymore. She knows how to army crawl her way into the playroom and
hold her own, and the twins like to make sure I answer right away to her every
cry. Having 3 under 3 isn't something we ever envisioned for our life but
it has been so rewarding despite the challenges.
Another notable change in our
family in 2019: We moved! Within the same neighborhood, and literally less than
a 30 second drive away from our old house, but we moved. We couldn’t leave our
neighborhood, ward, and incredible friends, but we needed more space to fit
another baby since the twins would never fall asleep in the same room at this
point. I never would have chosen to do it all while 8 months pregnant, but
that’s how it happened, and it almost put me into early labor HA. Luckily, I
made it through and waddled my way into my scheduled C-section on the 13th.
A few months after Mae came
along, a little dream of mine that I had been pushing to the back of my mind
for years started consuming my thoughts and I couldn’t ignore it anymore. So, I
decided to go back to school for my master’s in marriage and family therapy and
stop listening to the voice in my head that was reeeaallly good at listing all
the reasons why I couldn’t do it. I started at the end of August and I can
luckily do most everything online (Except for two intensives, the practicum,
and internship which I’m just not thinking about yet). I’m still working mostly
from home and spending almost every moment with the kids and yet, everything
has worked out so far. I feel at peace with my decision and although I have way
more on my plate now, the anxious feeling that comes with ignoring an unrealized
dream is gone, and that makes it all worth it.
Sunny and Guy are seriously
the funniest right now. They also have tested my patience more than anything
else I’ve ever experienced, but I’ve done more inner growth within the past
year than my whole adult life combined, so I have them to thank for spearheading
that! Parenthood! I recently bought a “funny things my kids say” journal to
quickly write down everything they tell me that makes me laugh, because heaven
forbid I forget even one little detail of their personalities right now. They’ve
started to play pretend together and have their own long conversations, usually
about what animals they’re going to get for their birthday. Guy will suggest an
animal, and Sunny will tell him whether or not it’s too dangerous to have as a
pet. I love having twins and seeing two completely different kids be so
connected and in tune with each other. My heart could burst 8294 times per day.
Here are some happy photos
from the past few(ish) months:
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